Wednesday, March 29, 2006



Clean slate

Have you ever wanted to just run away and start with a clean slate? Well not even that exactly, Start fresh I guess is a better way to term it.

I feel like life is stuck in a rut, a grueling repetition of school and work, homework, sleep (never enough.) The X was just an added stress to that stressful routine.

If I did start fresh, I would have to take UF, and Larry and Ruth with me, so I guess this is not really a fresh start.

I just get tired of the same old thing day in a day out... wow, that is pretty amazing considering I usually find comfort in my routine... Maybe I just need a break... this break neck speed is killing me. And the never ending doctors appointments the last 6 weeks, have not only broken my spirit, they have broken my bank. And when you have money problems, it is always in the back of your mind.

So yeah, a break, something out of the blue, fun, and perhaps breath taking. For life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but the number of moments that take our breath away!

I have a Psych test on Friday, and tengo un examen para mi clase de espanol el lunes. (and I have a spanish test on monday.) So, that has been causing some stress in life these days. I dunno, don't mind me. I will be glad when this semester is finally over. Only two more Core type classes, and then I am on to all psych and crim classes. Those are right up my alley.

Well, sorry no thoughts or facts or spanish lately.... well I guess there was some spanish up there!

Blog ya later.

shes_a_sprite @ 6:48 PM.

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Blogger Out Of Jersey said...

Irony, my room mate just did that and left me with a big bill that he owes. Things didn't turn out how he wanted so he quit his job and ran back home to mommy and daddy.

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Blogger shes_a_sprite said...

I am not planning on bailing out on anything. It just gets monotonous, the same thing everyday for 5 years. And there are some pay issues at work that are frustrating.

I am ready to be done with school, and get started with my real career in LE. Ready for a new city, new experiences, new people.

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Blogger Unknown said...

Awwww Spritey! Sometimes life does get a bit like that, once you get through some of the tests and all things will get back to the good, and it will be less repetitious I guess. I like the sounds of breathtaking! I'll take as many of those moments as I can.
Hopefully those doctors appointments will be over soon, I hate going to the doctor myself so I hear ya!
All the best with the test on "lunes" hope you get an A!!

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Blogger starbender said...

Always a day late and a dollar short...(me, that is!)
I feel like that every day of my life. RUN DAMMIT RUN!!! :o
THIS:
"life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but the number of moments that take our breath away!"
...is my new favorite quote! I'm going to spend the rest of my life looking 4 breathtaking moments! *sigh*

:)

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Blogger Garry Nixon said...

Everything will work out, you'll see. Life is really pressured and difficult for almost everyone these days. Studying hard and keeping the rest of your life together isn't easy, I know.

Come to Britain - at least you won't have to worry about medical bills.

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Blogger Seenie said...

I know what you mean with doctors appt! I've been back and forth to the doctos with various health issues. I may as well pack up my home and live and the doctors office! I am praying for you and some spirit uplifting! Things can become overwhelming! I know! I send you a huge hug!

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Monday, March 27, 2006



Thanks

Thanks everyone, for checking in on me, and being so supportive.

I am totally okay with everything. I was not even really upset. I was a little confused at first, how one minute he could be making plans for the rest of our summer, and the next minute he was getting cold feet. But once he set things in motion, it was me who said "well maybe we had better cut our losses while we are ahead." I just threw me off, as it is usually my idea to end things. LOL!

I had a lovely weekend! We had a poker party (we = people from work) and it was a lot of fun! I have never really played poker, but it turns out I am pretty good at it. We only played for change, but I left with more than I came with. :)

I also got a ton of stuff caught up this weekend. It was nice to wake up in my own house, and be able to go about life in the normal fashion, without having to worry about feeling guilty for not spending all of my time with a certian ass hole.

I will try to update more later, just wanted to let yall know that everything is okay~

blog ya later

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Blogger Unknown said...

I have never played poker, sounds and looks like fun though.
Glad you are ok, xxxx

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Blogger shes_a_sprite said...

Beachy~ I have been worried sick! It is good to hear from you! And even better to hear that Larry is holding his own! :) Thanks for the hug, and always, my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

Carmel ~ Poker was fun, but I don't think I would like it if there was more than just change involved. I am not much of a gambler... :)

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Blogger starbender said...

Hey~U'r back!!!
Good! U also have the right attitude about things! I wish I would have gotten out of a few relationships so easily! As beachy puts it, "BRIGHTER TOMORROWS!!!"
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Friday, March 24, 2006



Blown out of the water...

So James and I are no longer dating. I never saw it coming. I am not used to being dumped... it has only happened once. As far as I knew everything was fine, and all the sudden he was cold. He said things were moving too fast, but I was just following the pace he set. It was his idea to go meet parents, and his idea to go to Ft. Walton. I had plans to kayak with Larry, that I put on hold, cause he wanted me to go.

Anyhow it is better this way. Though he is a really nice guy, and I wish him the best in life, he is an alcoholic. And for the first time in my life, I did not hold that against him. I was trying to help him work through it. I guess this is what I get for not following my one strike, two strike, three strikes your out rule. That will teach me to let my guard down. lol~ I should have stuck with my gut and held him at arms length, but he was persuasive, clingy, pushing me to conform. Well he almost made it past the 90 day probation period... :) What strikes me as funny, is that I told Larry last night, before I talked to James, that this relationship was getting to be more trouble than it was worth. He needs too much of my time. ha~

I am really okay with this. It is easier on me, as it is hard to juggle school, work, and a relationship. He required most of my weekends, and every spare minute I had during the week. This is why I don't follow his reasoning. He was the one asking me for more time, can you come over tonight, can I come over tonight, am I going to see you tonight? constant hounding of that nature... so how ever fast it was moving was his pace.

Well, no big loss, I already have plans for tonight, and tomorrow night. :) Tomorrow night should be fun, as we are getting together a poker night. It should be interesting, cause I don't know how to play poker. lol~ It is a BYOB party, and I will probably be staying in Williston Saturday night.

I will finally have time to catch up on my psychology reading! I have my Saturdays back :) There is a test next friday in psych, and then one the following monday in spanish. We went over commands today in spanish, and man there is yet another verb congugation for these verbs. There are tons of congugations... reflexive, present progressive, commands, and good lord we have not even touched past tense yet.

well I need to pay attention now. blog ya later.

shes_a_sprite @ 7:25 AM.

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Blogger RenderB said...

Most latin based languages are a pain that way. Heck even french can be a headache at times. Although compared to some of the issues you run into while learning a version of chinese or japanese they are relatively simple. (From a western POV that is.)

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Blogger Unknown said...

It sounds like you really are better off, you are a special woman and only a very special guy will do.
Being an alchoholic would give me red signals because I have been in an alchoholic relationship it was terrible and you can't even try to fix it.
I'm glad you are ok with it.
Although it's confusing since he took you to meet his family so recently!
It doesn't matter that you let your guard down, it was a brave thing to do, and a good risk.
I do have to say though, that he doesnt know what he has just missed out on and lost!
You are in my prayers, much love xxx

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Blogger starbender said...

Awww sweetie, I'm sooo sorry! Honestly, U are MUCH BETTER OFF! Like Carmel said--Being in a alchoholic relationship is terrible! That is putting it mildly. They R way beyond terrible. U can't help him! Not ever! I know, I have had 2. There is NO-WAY 2 deal with these guys! No matter what the situation is, there is only 3 ways 2 deal with an alchoholic---AND ALL 3 R WRONG ANYHOW!
1. Agree with them!
2. Say U didn't hear them!
3. Pretend U are sleeping!
It doesn't matter-U always end up getting U'r azz kicked! It is very, VERY SAD!!! I don't think U realize how LUCKY u really are right now. FUCK THE BASTARD!!! He has just saved U'R LIFE!!!
:)
P.S. Don't EVER take him back!!! Whatever U do.... Even if he begs! I speak from experience... RUN FROM THESE TYPES!!!

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Blogger RenderB said...

There is only one thing you should do with any kind of addict, not have anything to do with them. It doesn't matter if it's alchol, drugs, sex, computers or even watching tv.
You can't help these kinds of people they have to help themselves.

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Blogger Luctouque said...

puttig alcohol aside...it sounded like he had a co-dependancy problem and that if he was that clingy so early on in the relationship just imagine how it would be after a year. Looks like he did you a favour by leaving:)

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Blogger starbender said...

Just checkin on U. Everything okay?
I know it gets a bit depressing after a break up! Thought I would stop by and say "Hi"
:)

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Wednesday, March 22, 2006



Okay well blogger is being a butt about posting these two pictures, but there is more than one way to skin a cat. 

We

all know that I am no pro, but I loved this driftwood, and thought yall

might enjoy it too.  I loved how it captured the beach, the sky,

and the water, all at once.  Natures beauty! 



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Me and muh baby on St. Paddy's Day.  Yes that is a green beer in

his hand.  I did not drink green beer, but I did have a few green

shots.  I was feeling slightly toasty by the end of the

evening.  After that we went for a barefooted walk in the full

moons light on the white sandy beaches of the gulf.  The water was

cold, but I could not help but walk in the surf.  I love the

ocean. 
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Blogger Unknown said...

You know blogger has been a pain in the butt lately with photos, it took me ages to post mine. That photo is gorgeous, not bad at all!

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Blogger starbender said...

BLOGGER + POSTING PHOTOS =
:"""(


Really! I don't know what their disfunction is---but they need 2 fix it. Some of my posts take me 5 to 6-8-10 tries!!!

I also luv driftwood, AND THE BEACH!!! I'm sooo jealous-It's way 2 cold outside here 2 be walking on the beach! MAYBE SITTING BY A HUGE BON-FIRE.
....and what a sexy finish 2 what sounds like a fantastic St. Pat's day!!!!
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ello all

I had my follow up with the doc yesterday. She concurs that it is allergies that is causing my lymphnodes to become inflamed... so I can never be off my allergy medicine again. I have yet another swollen lymphnode beneath my right arm. So once again, three perscriptions later... I am hopefully on the road to recovery. I also have a sinus infection. I am sick to death of being ill! It gets depressing after a while. I try not to complain about it, cause no one wants to hear it. But it gets really old not feeling well. Anyhow, if I have anymore lymphnodes get inflamed in the next month, while on allergy medicine, she is sending me to see an allergy sepcialist.

Next topic:


Okay~ so where did we leave off...
Ft. Walton Pictures:
It was a full moon on St. Patricks day, this photo is from a club called the Swamp. We are looking off a second floor balcony onto the beach. All I can say is "when the moon hits your eye like a big pizza pie"




Okay so for you guys this is probably not so exciting, but I got pictures of pelicans flying by a beautiful beach, and I actually caught them in the picture. Not bad for an amature!
I like this picture. We are climbing a sand dune, that was blown around a live oak. I am about three quartes of the way up, and the branches you see, are the tree branches. The whole tree was covered with sand, except the top branches. :)


Beautiful beach sky

Sun rays over the gulf.

Okay this is even better than the birds, it is a dolphin. There were several, and it took me about 100 pictures to get the timing right! you can see him about mid screen! :)
Me and muh baby on the beach!

Thought for the day: You have two hands. One to help yourself, the second to help others. ~ unknown
Always hold your head up, but be careful to keep your nose at a friendly level. ~Max L. Forman

Factoid: At latitude 60 degrees south you can sail the entire way around the world.

Espanol: el desayuno = breakfast el almuezo = lunch la cena = dinner tener hambre = to be hungry tener sed = to be thirsty

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Blogger Unknown said...

they are gorgeous piccys, I love the beach too. You and James look great together once again! I must visit a beach soon!

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Monday, March 20, 2006



A break from Spring break...


Man ~ It was a super jam packed spring break, I had a lot of fun, and I feel a lot closer to James for all of it, but I am glad to be home.

Ft. Walton is B-E-A-utiful!!! There is water everywhere! Chanels, and the Gulf, buyous, coves, just tons of water... Though by Sunday I was wiped out from going full tilt for over a week, and probably a mite crabby for it... I feel like James and I grew in our relationship over the last week and a half. Meeting family, traveling, dealing with his tenants... going to the beach... I think we really got a look at how we both deal with things, beyond the scope of 'dating'

We are approaching 3 months... in 8 days as a matter of fact, and I don't have the slightest incling to run away. I am happy with him, (though sometimes he aggravates me... I think that is just men in general... ladies you know what I mean LOL! Sometimes I think he aggravates me on purpose...) Anyhow, I am happy with us! It is relieving to feel part of a normal relationship... that is not disfunctional in some (or all) aspect(s)...

I will follow with some pictures from the beach, and St. Patrick's Day.


Thought for the day: The fishermen know that the sea is dangerous and the storm terrible, but they have never found these dangers sufficient reasons for remaining ashore. ~ Vincent Van Gogh

Facts for the day: a history of St. Patrick's Day...

St Patrick is known as the patron saint of Ireland. True, he was not a born Irish. But he has become an integral part of the Irish heritage, mostly through his service across Ireland of the 5th century.

Patrick was born in the later half of the 4th century AD. There are differing views about the exact year and place of his birth. According to one school of opinion, he was born about 390 A.D., while the other school says it is about 373 AD. Again, his birth place
is said to be in either Scottland or Roman England.

His real name was probably Maewyn Succat. Though Patricius was his Romanicized name, he was later came to be familiar as Patrick.

Patrick was the son of Calpurnius, a Roman-British army officer. He was growing up as naturally as other kids in Britain. However, one day a band of pirates landed in south Wales and kidnapped this boy along with many others. Then they sold him into slavery in Ireland. The was there for 6 years, mostly imprisoned. This was when changes came to him. He dreamed of having seen God. Legend says, he was then dictated by God to escape with a getaway ship.

Finally, he did escape and went to Britain, and then to France. There he joined a monastery and studied under St. Germain, the bishop of Auxerre. He spent around 12 years in training. And when he became a bishop he dreamed that the Irish were calling him back to Ireland to tell them about God. The Confessio, Patrick's spiritual autobiography, is the most important document regarding this. It tells of a dream after his return to Britain, in which one Victorious delivered him a letter headed "The Voice of the Irish."

So he set out for Ireland with the Pope's blessings. There he converted the Gaelic Irish, who were then mostly Pagans, to Christianity. He was confident in the Lord, he journeyed far and wide, baptizing and confirming with untiring zeal. And, in a diplomatic fashion he brought gifts to a kinglet here and a lawgiver there,but accepted none from any.

Indeed, Patrick was quite successful at winning converts. Through active preaching, he made important converts even among the royal families. And this fact upset the Celtic Druids. Patrick was arrested several times,but escaped each time. For 20 years he had traveled throughout Ireland, establishing monasteries across the country. He also set up schools and churches which would aid him in his conversion. He developed a native clergy, fostered the growth of monasticism, established dioceses, and held church councils.

Patrick's doctrine is considered orthodox and has been interpreted as anti-Pelagian. Although he is not particularly noted as a man of learning, a few of his writings remain extant: his Confession, a reply to his detractors, and several letters. The Lorica ("Breastplate"), a famous hymn attributed to Patrick, may date to a later period.
By the end of the 7th century Patrick had become a legendary figure, and the legends have continued to grow since then. There are many legends associated with St Patrick.
It is said that he used the three-leafed shamrock to explain the concept of the Trinity;
which refers to the combination of Father, Son, and the Holy Spirit. Hence its strong association with his day and name. Legend also has that, Saint Patrick had put the curse of God on venomous snakes in Ireland. And he drove all the snakes into the sea where they drowned.

True, these are mostly legends. But, after some 1500 years, these legends have been inseparably combined with the facts. And together they have helped us know much about the Saint and the spirit behind celebration of the day.

Patrick's mission in Ireland lasted for over 20 years. He died on March 17, AD 461.
That day has been commemorated as St. Patrick's Day ever since. The day's spirit is to celebrate the universal baptization of Ireland. Though originally a Catholic holy day,
St. Patrick's Day has evolved into more of a secular holiday. Or, rather, 'be an Irish Day '.
And the Irish has borne it as part of their national tradition in everywhere they populated and prospered.

The Catholic feast day for this most loved of Irish saints has become a holiday in celebration of the Irish and Irish culture. The leprechaun, a Celtic Fairy, has become entrenched as a chief symbol for this holiday, as is the shamrock, an ancient symbol for the triple goddess Bridgit It is fitting that this holiday should fall at the time of the year when the return of spring begins to seem at hand.

Sorry no espanol today... I just got back from spring break, and have forgotten everything... lol!

shes_a_sprite @ 2:56 PM.

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Blogger Unknown said...

That video was hilarious, cute and hilarious, the end was MEAN! LOL.
I love the sound of coves and bayous etc, I would love some sunny beach right now, I am F R E E Z I N G!
Things sound great and very natural between you and James, which is really exciting. I bet his family adore you!
Yah men are annoying, it's just something about a male that can aggravate a woman lol, although they say you can't live with them and can't live without them and I can't live without mine.
Can't wait for these St.Patrick day photos, Jonathan had green beer but I couldn't help going for the red wine.
Love xxx

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Blogger starbender said...

I've always said,
"men-
U can't live with 'em--

U CAN'T LIVE WITH 'EM!!!
Hmmm......
hahahaa...
Luv'd the gym vid. Hey-I
resemble that video!
A normal relationship---
Ahhh..., One can only fantasize!
;]

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Saturday, March 11, 2006



highland game photos

Part of the march of the Clans... I love the bagpipes!


an owl from the birds of prey show

The dancers... I don't know how they do it, I would keep broken toes!

me and muh baby! Yep that is part of my tartan you see over my shoulder... (tartan ~ our plad)

Ruth and Lar at the birds of prey show...

Me and Lar the night before, slightly tipsy...
awwww... aren't we cute?
Lar being a sexy icon!
Wrestling!!!
Play fighting... I think Ruth won!

shes_a_sprite @ 8:18 PM.

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Blogger starbender said...

had 2 come and catch up on things. Just been sooo busy lately. The owl is fantastic. U look like u are having fun! The pictures below came out really good, also.
:)

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Blogger Out Of Jersey said...

gotta love the highland games, did ye have yerself a pint as well? I've been to so many celtic festivals it's almost sad.

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This is a Philly band, you might like them.

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Blogger Seenie said...

I could hardly get in to post my wee comment! ARG! lol. You two make the cutest couple ever! You asked about the Degu pics? There is a post that I wrote up if you scroll down that shows them! They are ever so cute! If I ever get to meeting you one day we should head for a happy highland pint! Awesome pics!

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Blogger Unknown said...

wow looks like you have been getting up to lots of great stuff! Lovely pics, you and the man look like a great couple, even if you seem to be choking him!! ;)

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rio caminar

(river walk... I think)





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Blogger Dinorider d'Andoandor said...

perhaps "caminata por el rio" may sound better to a spanish speaker

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Sweet Home Alabama?

Not really, I am singing Sweet home Gainesville Florida...

We got here okay, and so far so good, I think. James' parents seem to like me so far... They seem really nice, and I like his sister alot. Probably my only complaint as of now, would be that I miss my little Draco... James forgot his medicine. So that is not good, but I am sure it will work out okay.

Will update as I can. Hope everyone else is doing ok!

shes_a_sprite @ 10:52 AM.

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Thursday, March 09, 2006



a brief update

Draco in his new Gators Sweater... Man I am going to miss him over the next four days. But I know mom enjoys having him , and traveling with Aiden will be trying enough.


Draco at High Springs... Damn is he cute or what?

And I started to post some pictures from the highland games, but then I got distracted, saved as a draft... and well you only get one highland picture this time... lol I will get a few posted soon!


They had a birds of prey tent, and show... it was pretty neat.

Well, I get off work in 5 hours, and I can't hardly wait. We are heading out~ 10-7 (that is a ten code that we use on the radio for out of service [poilce radio]) vacation....

I did not do so hot on my spanish test... a 75.25 % which is a solid C... but I don't make C's, I spaz out when I make B's, I push my self to do better when I make low A's... so I was devestated. I just hope that I can bring it back up before the end of the semester. :(

Okay so I added a few things in the left column. I added the link for the breast cancer site. If you click the button for funding free mammograms... it would be appreciated on many levels. It counts the number of clicks a day, and the people who advertise on that sight donate money to fund free mammograms for the less fortunate who cannot afford them.

I also added a link for the Joyful Heart Foundation. It is a support group for survivors of rape and sexual abuse, founded by one of my favorite actresses Marishka Hargitay. There is not a lot of outlet for those who have faced these horrors. Rape is a very stigmatized offense, and often women who survive these atrocities are looked down upon. Marishka works as an advocate, and also works to increase awareness and education about rape.

Thought for the day: Always do right. This will gratify somepeople and astonish the rest. ~Mark Twain

When I despair, I remember that all through history they way of truth and love has always won. There have been tyrants, and murderers, and for a time they can seem invincible, but in the end they always fall, Always! ~Mahatma Gandhi

Factoid: The word "checkmate" comes from the Persian phrase "Shah Mat," meaning "the king is dead".

Espanol: No me gusta espanol ahora... Spanish does not please me (right) now. Estudio muy duro, y frusterates mí. I study very hard, and it frusterates me.

shes_a_sprite @ 9:26 PM.

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Blogger starbender said...

Awwww....,
Sorry 2 hear about that Spanish grade! (Sometimes it's hard enough 2 speak english!)
Had 2 laugh, and laugh at that comment U left about the cake!
heheheeee......
;]

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Blogger starbender said...

U'r doggie is sooooo ADORABLE!!!
:)

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Blogger Unknown said...

Oh yeah Draco is cute! In the second piccy he looks like Bambi lol, but I don't think you should tell him that ;-O
Have a safe trip, I hope you have a great time, keep us updated. Oh btw, sorry about the C you will pick it up 4 sure. :-)

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Anonymous Anonymous said...

Don't worry so much.. practice will make perfection!

A friend had a prey bird like that... as a pet... we call it cernícalo (it's like a tinny falcon).
BTW: My dog and my parrotlet have blogs too...
... continue practicing your spanish!

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Wednesday, March 08, 2006



Thank you!

Just a quick update, as I am about to start class, I wanted to thank everyone for their thoughts and prayers, the support I received, from my real time friends, as well as my blogger buddies, was abundant! The power of prayer had prevailed!

The lumps in the breasts are normal for people my age, I do not have breast cancer, or any other disease. The inflamation of the lymphnodes is not normal, but it is not cancer! I have to go see an allergist, as they think that is what might be causing it. I can handle being stuck by needles, so long as I don't have cancer. The weight of the world was lifted from my shoulders yesterday, and I smiled for the first time in days. I was able to catch up on my homework, and I even took a few minutes before bed to do a couple of pages in my scrap book.

More good news, my spanish class is cancled for Friday, so I will be able to get to work earlier, thus be able to leave earlier for Alabama! :)

Well gotta pay attention now...

Thought for the day: Courage is being scared to death -- and saddling up anyways. ~John Wayne.

Factoid: The king of hearts is the only king without a mustache on a standard playing card!

Espanol: To the east - al este To the west - al oeste To the north - al norte South of - surde

shes_a_sprite @ 8:25 AM.

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Blogger Out Of Jersey said...

that is awesome about the cancer. Looks like things are really going your way. woo hoo.

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Anonymous Anonymous said...

That's brilliant news. I bet you feel so happy. :)

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Blogger Unknown said...

I am very very happy, lots of big huge huggies! Lets be lumpy! ;)

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Anonymous Anonymous said...

That is problem in women worldwide.... It's cool to know that you are one of those lucky women that are free of problem, sometimes the real problem is discovered too late.... health policies should be arranged so that more women could access those tests more easily.

P.S. So... you are taking spanish lessons? I guess if you are able to understand my website then. Many spanish speakers don't understand my spanish despite my mothertongue is that one! :(

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Monday, March 06, 2006



squish

Tomorrow is the big day... I am about a nervous wreck, but trying not to think about it.

I want to apologize to Beachy and Alex, for some reason, my bookmarks were not pulling up updated versions of your blogs. The last thing I had read from either of you was the beginning of february. Sorry about this, and I will try to catch up!

I really do not have a lot to update about. I got a 94 on that psych test, still no news on my spanish test.

Spring break begins this Friday, and I need the break, though it is going to be a busy one! Friday we (James and I) leave for Alabama, to meet his parents, and them mine. We come back Tuesday, I have training classes on microsoft excell that Wednesday and Thrudsday, the Friday I work, and James and I leave for Ft. Walton Beach. He wants to check on his house, and I want to go to the beach. His friend Mike will be there with his Sail boat, (on business during that week) just happens to be a coincidence, but I think we are going sailing finally!

So my break does not seem very much like a break, but it should be fun! No homework for a week, and I get to spend a lot of time with James. I am nervious about meeting his family, but I think it will be okay.

well I am going to go...

Thanks for all of your support, thoughts and prayers... I doubt I will know anything tomorrow, but I will update as soon as I do. Keep your fingers crossed that it is just some lumpy boobs!

shes_a_sprite @ 6:40 PM.

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Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hey! Spring break! W00t! :D
I wish you a relaxing and happy break.
I hope it'll cheer you up.

Best wishes! - Mark

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Blogger Unknown said...

YOur week sounds like it will be great, I haven't been sailing yet, and it's been too long since I went to the beach :(
James' parents will love you i'm sure they will!

prayers and hugs x

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Wednesday, March 01, 2006



lumpy boobs

I don't know how to address this, other than with a little bit of humor, otherwise it just gets overwhelming.

A couple of weeks ago I went to the doctor for a lump under my arm, that they diagnosed as a "spider bite". I grew slightly suspicious when the lump moved from my right arm to my left arm. I didn't know spiderbites could do that. Friday I got another lump, and then Sunday another, both in my right armpit, both slightly painful. I think they get irritated from my arm movements, purse straps, back packs, and bra. The one on my left arm does not hurt.

So, Monday, as soon as I completed my Spanish test (still no grade posted), I made a doctor's appointment on the way to my psych class. They got me in right away. The doctors have decided that my spider bite, was not a spider bite at all, but an inflamed lymphnode they think. Upon examining my lymphnodes, they did a breast exam too. Apparently I have lumpy boobs. I thought it was strange that my boobs have gone from a B cup to a D cup in the last 6 mos. But hey the rest of me has grown too, so I did not think much of it. The doctor asked if I have ever had implants... I was like no, thought about it back in the day, but no... she was like "are you sure?" I was like, lady I think I would remember, if not the surgery, at least the bill. I have a large egg sized lump and several small lumps scattered in both breasts. This is kinda scary. They refered me to a Boob specialist, and because of the number of lumps, were able to get me in super quick. My apt is this coming week.

I read an article once, about mammograms... this lady went for her first boob squish, and just as they smashed em good and tight, the power went out. So, the doctor and the nurse left to investigate. Waiting in the semi dark room, (there was a window) she begins to think that they have forgotton her. Workmen come in the room, and she requests that they assist her out of the machine, "Sorry mam, only certified professionals are allowed to operate this machine" So quite exasperated at this time she exclaims, "Well then go get someone certified" The guy looks at his feet, and replies "well Mam, I would but they have all decided to take an early lunch due to the power outage. " She was stuck in the boob squisher for hours. It has a humorous undertone, but I would be mortified, and terribly pissed off.

I am scheduled for a mammogram and ultrasounds on both boobs, and possible biopsies. My face must haved turned white when the doctor said the word "Mammogram" I was like "but I am not old..."

I have always been a staunch supporter of cancer, breast cancer in particular. I visit the click for free mammograms site often, but today, I thought rather ironic, I got this email.

There's a bill called the Breast Cancer Patient Protection Act which will require insurance companies to cover a minimum 48-hour hospital stay for patients undergoing a mastectomy. It's about eliminating the "drive-through mastectomy" where women are forced to go home hours after surgery against the wishes of their doctor, still groggy from anesthesia and sometimes with drainage tubes still attached.

Lifetime Television has put this bill on their web page with a petition drive to show your support. Last year over half the House signed on.

PLEASE!! Sign the petition by clicking on the web site below. You need not give more than your name and zip code number.



So anywho... It could be a lot of things, breast cancer runs in my paternal side, cystic fibrosis runs in my mothers side, could be fatty tumors... I am hoping it is just lumpy boobs. I asked James, and he said I am not uneven or anything. I sure he hated that job... lol. And look at it this way, how many times have I said boobs in the last five minutes? and who is going to yell at me? I even called them boobs to the doctor, then I asked if that was okay, and she laughed and said it was fine.

I had a psych test today, I tried to study, but nothing seemed to soak in, I would just read the same lines over and over... I was slightly apprehensive to take it, but I think I may have done ok. Reading the chapters before hand really helped. :) I should know tonight.

anywho... an update on the highland games to come.

shes_a_sprite @ 11:36 AM.

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Anonymous Anonymous said...

never forget the power of a strong postive mind and prayer can help share the load

10:25 PM

 
Blogger Unknown said...

Hey there Sprite. I will be praying and thinking of you at my prayer times. Even though this could just be lumpy boobs, as your lymphnodes seem to change from swelling on one side to the other. Actually, all boobs do somewhat feel lumpy, yours could be just more so. So don't go thinking the worst ! Mamograms are encouraged for younger women here in Australia too, it used to be for over 50yo women, now they encourage it much earlier, still lets always check when we are in the shower!
Do you like green tea or black? I think every woman should have a cup of that every day.
Keep us updated and don't fear
Lots of love and hugs! xxxxxxxxx

5:00 PM

 
Blogger Seenie said...

You have many praying for a postitive outcome. I know its hard but think positive. I have health issues too that bring me down and really get to me at times but you just gotta think that, hey i'm still here and thank God for that. (BLOGGER= Support system from people all over the place!) Kinda neat hey! My family and I are praying for you! Take care of yourself and try not to stress it definatly makes things wayyyy worse! I send you a big squeeeeeeeze!

2:24 PM

 
Blogger starbender said...

Awww Sweetie~
I am so sorry to hear all of this!
Keep u'r chin up-don't ever worry about things - until u absolutly have 2! If I have learned anything in my life-time---it is that!
U are also in my prayers---Everything will be fine!
:)

2:29 PM

 
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Aw man. This is the second bad news this week.
My friend dies at the railway and now this.
I shure hope, you'll be allright.

and Praying?...
This will be the first time ever.

Think positive.
We're all with you.


(man i really can't write today. )

1:04 AM

 
Blogger Dano said...

Wow...this sucks...I hope everything is ok.
Do you use anti-persperant?
Cuz that could be a major factor...my girlfriend gets lumps in her armpits sometimes due to this. She has had to switch to natural deodourants to stop this.
Anyway, I'm sure you'll be fine, and I'll pray for you sweetie!

5:52 PM

 
Blogger Unknown said...

I have to second Dano's comment, that's right, don't use anti perspirants if you are at the moment, I stopped months ago and use pump spray or roll on only.
Still prayin xxxxxxxxxxx

8:10 PM

 
Blogger Miss Me said...

well I really hope it's nothing life-threatening, but anyway I can imagine you're quite flabbergasted about this... and of course you're not old, but stupid things happen to young people too.

I hope everything will go absolutely flawless and if they forget you in that thing. Oew I will stalk them all the way from here (=the Netherlands).

1:52 AM

 
Blogger Garry Nixon said...

The fact you can tell a funny story about a mammogram shows you're being positive, and you're obviously very brave. I'm thinking positive thoughts for you, too. Good luck.

12:09 PM

 

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